confusion time....

Its been a pattern for me.....my college life has to be happening one way or the other.Thought this was over in the engg days, but no! I have to get into some controversy or the other every few weeks. This time it makes me think, why on earth when I do what all other normal people do, its always my case which people find exemplary. Why is it that I find my selves in a sea of questions! Why do I have to answer each and every thing I do...why do I have to think twice before even the most normal of decisions. Why are so many eyes on what I do when they have nothing but gossip to feed upon. This has been probably the nth time this is happening and this time I am really pissed off with the happenings. Nothing has been going right any where, personally or professionally.. Probably its high time I introspected and came up with a strong plan. When every time I make myself believe that I would not listen to anyone anywhere and would not react to it, why am I falling weak now. Why am I faltering in my people handling and my relationship maintainability skills. Why do I feel myself running away from every instance which needs taking decision......I really need to test life on skills now before its too late.