Well...Two things..!!!One, something that I was always proud of was my tolerance limit..I actually used to brag about it and second, the other thing which I always mentioned the same without fail was my inability to express my anger on my dear and near ones as my weakness.
The first has suffered a tremendous jolt of late and the second has been the reason for it. It's said that it always helps to vent out the pent up emotions, the misunderstandings, the good and the bad, the happiness and the hurt, the love and the hatred. But somehow my conscience does not allow me to do so and that adds up to my overflowing inbox of unrest. There have been times when I have been advised by my agony aunts (and uncles;) ) that I should better say the thoughts on the face rather than keeping it inside me and troubling my own-self over it. But what I feel is that it will serve no good. Had the person meant to understand the issues, they would have already done so.
Now what happened now, is that with the change of address I probably lost my best ever soulmates behind; the people who could understand me without me saying a word. The people who I could always leave my tensions on and still relax as to they will manage something or the other. For if it sounds me being too over-dependent and selfish, it was other way round as well. But yes, I wish to make a confession...they wer the only people I think I can trust blindly...my group of 5...!!!
Now how does this relate to the above is that whenever I felt like blurting out or whenever some incident/some person bothered me to the hilt ,I could go to them and behave like a kid...the one thing I loved to and manno always got a saviour...but here when I am sitting in my cozy bed at 3 AM in the morning....(I have found some good friends and yes...I am pretty much settled in IIFT....contrary to my previous statements that I wont ever... :) ),something is missing and that is a void I would never ever be able to fill throughout my life... :(
The best gals gang ever...the masti I will never forget...the endless talks...the gyaan sessions...the debates over small issues...the food we shared...the padhaai...and padhaai ke liye daant....the sleeps and the alarms...the GB night talks and the classes in which we barely learnt anything...I will miss that all...and this is when its been 5 months to the day we met the last...I realised that the five of them were unique in their own way....
Minal...the most girly of us 5..the one who would cry her eyes out when the hero meets heroine in the end of a romantic tragedy, yet when coming to display of displeasure, the maximum no of outbursts came from this lady. A true secretkeeper who would always shout at me for shouting at her...!!!
Namita...the bacchi...who could study day in and day out when exams approached...the one who mistrusted her destiny the most...the one who was always there to check my tap-tap when no one else would notice...the one who being the youngest would advice me like my grandma..
Nidhi...well....my Agony aunt as mentioned above... :D she was the one I would always go to when nothing struck my mind...outta 74% I got in BTech almost 20 belonged to her...the dedicated and focussed gal...the only friend who I love for her strictness and scoldings and would be an inspiration when the time will come to scold my own kids... ;)...also a major contribution is hers when it came to the formation of the Bechaara club....one should see the glint in her eyes when she mentions the tortures her would-be would go through....well but but but....havent seen a kidder than her when interacting with her parents ( dunno if that's a word but that is what came to my mind)
Amrita....well...words will fall short when I come to talk about her...my twin soul...my roomie for first 2 years and for the next 2 as well...the one who surprisingly shared half my habits and could be a kid to me or a grandma...whichever way the situation would demand...she was the one who knew every detail info on me...even abhi bhi...the one I would always trust the most to understand me even if we dont share the views on that matter...the one who would be my Devil's advocate...the one who would know what happend before I could tell...the one who would take liberty to taunt me and tease me and then console me...!
Well...as far as myself is concerned, these 4 have been the most tormented souls by me...they have been the ones to wipe my tears and share my joy...the ones who I would never have to think to turn back for anything ever....We had our best days and the bad ones as well...but one thing I am pretty sure of is that we would all can achieve the sky the day we want to.....these sweetheart would be the ones I believe would be there for me humesha...wherever we are whenever I look for them...!!!
The first has suffered a tremendous jolt of late and the second has been the reason for it. It's said that it always helps to vent out the pent up emotions, the misunderstandings, the good and the bad, the happiness and the hurt, the love and the hatred. But somehow my conscience does not allow me to do so and that adds up to my overflowing inbox of unrest. There have been times when I have been advised by my agony aunts (and uncles;) ) that I should better say the thoughts on the face rather than keeping it inside me and troubling my own-self over it. But what I feel is that it will serve no good. Had the person meant to understand the issues, they would have already done so.
Now what happened now, is that with the change of address I probably lost my best ever soulmates behind; the people who could understand me without me saying a word. The people who I could always leave my tensions on and still relax as to they will manage something or the other. For if it sounds me being too over-dependent and selfish, it was other way round as well. But yes, I wish to make a confession...they wer the only people I think I can trust blindly...my group of 5...!!!
Now how does this relate to the above is that whenever I felt like blurting out or whenever some incident/some person bothered me to the hilt ,I could go to them and behave like a kid...the one thing I loved to and manno always got a saviour...but here when I am sitting in my cozy bed at 3 AM in the morning....(I have found some good friends and yes...I am pretty much settled in IIFT....contrary to my previous statements that I wont ever... :) ),something is missing and that is a void I would never ever be able to fill throughout my life... :(
The best gals gang ever...the masti I will never forget...the endless talks...the gyaan sessions...the debates over small issues...the food we shared...the padhaai...and padhaai ke liye daant....the sleeps and the alarms...the GB night talks and the classes in which we barely learnt anything...I will miss that all...and this is when its been 5 months to the day we met the last...I realised that the five of them were unique in their own way....
Minal...the most girly of us 5..the one who would cry her eyes out when the hero meets heroine in the end of a romantic tragedy, yet when coming to display of displeasure, the maximum no of outbursts came from this lady. A true secretkeeper who would always shout at me for shouting at her...!!!
Namita...the bacchi...who could study day in and day out when exams approached...the one who mistrusted her destiny the most...the one who was always there to check my tap-tap when no one else would notice...the one who being the youngest would advice me like my grandma..
Nidhi...well....my Agony aunt as mentioned above... :D she was the one I would always go to when nothing struck my mind...outta 74% I got in BTech almost 20 belonged to her...the dedicated and focussed gal...the only friend who I love for her strictness and scoldings and would be an inspiration when the time will come to scold my own kids... ;)...also a major contribution is hers when it came to the formation of the Bechaara club....one should see the glint in her eyes when she mentions the tortures her would-be would go through....well but but but....havent seen a kidder than her when interacting with her parents ( dunno if that's a word but that is what came to my mind)
Amrita....well...words will fall short when I come to talk about her...my twin soul...my roomie for first 2 years and for the next 2 as well...the one who surprisingly shared half my habits and could be a kid to me or a grandma...whichever way the situation would demand...she was the one who knew every detail info on me...even abhi bhi...the one I would always trust the most to understand me even if we dont share the views on that matter...the one who would be my Devil's advocate...the one who would know what happend before I could tell...the one who would take liberty to taunt me and tease me and then console me...!
Well...as far as myself is concerned, these 4 have been the most tormented souls by me...they have been the ones to wipe my tears and share my joy...the ones who I would never have to think to turn back for anything ever....We had our best days and the bad ones as well...but one thing I am pretty sure of is that we would all can achieve the sky the day we want to.....these sweetheart would be the ones I believe would be there for me humesha...wherever we are whenever I look for them...!!!
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