Possessiveness....Am I entitled...??

This comes out of nowhere and out of everywhere.Happens with me a lot and then I console myself with "It happens with everyone damn it... !!" But then why does it disturb my thought process and spoils a near perfect day.Lets begin with my perception of what is friendship....I believe it is the perfect when u can understand each other without saying a word.It is doing everything possible within your capabilities to make the other happy and the right to scold the other to make things good for him.But probably what I tend to forget is that being happy always doesn't mean being together at all times.Friendship to last long really long needs some breathing space.

This is actually a time when I am actually stuck in a paradox.At one stage the obsession is driving me crazy (....and this is crazy as it should be rather than the meaning generally taken).On the other hand I am actually not in the best of my moods because of similar obsession.Shouldn't have two standards for the same thing.Maybe my perception on the friendship and the depth differs in the two cases.Maybe I justify myself with this excuse..God Knows what exactly is happening and then I wish I cud get some answers....or if not answers then solution to my dilemma... :| :(