MBA....!!!

This comes up as being the veterans of the MBA marathon of written and GD/PI, the consultation phase was in swing of late.One of my juniors was recently discussing the answers to the perennial question " Why do you want to do MBA? " and I was taken back to the time when I planned to go through these gruelling sessions of GD/PI preps and the other written tests and mocks, of missing my engineering classes and sitting overnight reading stuff about the recent happenings in the world.The sole objective of going through these tortures ;) was to get out of the technical domain which didn't get me that excited.Also another reason for the MBA being my destination was the belief that this will add knowledge to my kitty and probably make me more suitable for starting my job in one of those dream companies where I would be valued... ;) :D

Now as it has almost been an year when I went through all these phases and got through one of the good colleges in the country.It was a happening start and even more happening phase after that...with some highs and a few lows. Met some of the very nice people I had ever met. Learnt a lot from the peers and others around.But as I sit back and realize how much did I learn and add value to myself in the last 8 months.Academically and otherwise.Did I actually gain sthing or just it was an extended college life with all the fun reloaded even more. What was the aim when I entered...how much have I transformed...have I made use of all my potential....what leaves me so laid back here....what makes me so not enthusiastic about the events around here....a lot needs to be answered....will I get the answers..???

The guide to my introspection mood..!

It has been my favorite activity for the last many years to sit back every fortnight or so and look back at the time...to contemplate over what went right or what went wrong; what was the high point and how could i get over my blues. Sometimes my blues would also coax me into the aforementioned stage. But one thing I realized recently more often than not I end up thinking about trivial things the whole night.The thing that might be a trifle for someone else or which might not even make an appearance in the consideration set of most of the normal homo sapiens would make me go haywire for hours and hours together.

Symptoms:a glum face with a lost look, a general hmm or ok on the chat for anything and everything, an annoyance for every thing big or small or even worse indifference towards such things.

Duration: can be anything, from 1 hour to days at a stretch it depends on the severity of the results and the   environment around.

Catalyst: Guilt is the most effective catalyst taking the reaction rate manifolds.

Prescription: Let me be alone....dont bother me with the intermittent "kya hua". I know you care for me, but I assure you I would get better soon widout being bugged. If you must just make sure that you do nothing to add to my anguish.

Post Introspection Phase: Generally this kind of phase leads me to a few days of sincerity and implementations of  the key learning, and zillion self promises regarding the future plan of action, 

BUT then as all MBA's will agree the learnings are the first thing we forget and get back to the normal phase waiting for another set of introspection days.

Possessiveness....Am I entitled...??

This comes out of nowhere and out of everywhere.Happens with me a lot and then I console myself with "It happens with everyone damn it... !!" But then why does it disturb my thought process and spoils a near perfect day.Lets begin with my perception of what is friendship....I believe it is the perfect when u can understand each other without saying a word.It is doing everything possible within your capabilities to make the other happy and the right to scold the other to make things good for him.But probably what I tend to forget is that being happy always doesn't mean being together at all times.Friendship to last long really long needs some breathing space.

This is actually a time when I am actually stuck in a paradox.At one stage the obsession is driving me crazy (....and this is crazy as it should be rather than the meaning generally taken).On the other hand I am actually not in the best of my moods because of similar obsession.Shouldn't have two standards for the same thing.Maybe my perception on the friendship and the depth differs in the two cases.Maybe I justify myself with this excuse..God Knows what exactly is happening and then I wish I cud get some answers....or if not answers then solution to my dilemma... :| :(