Move on....

As usual some thoughts get no words.....just between u and me...and one of those thoughts find a mention..

What do you do when some one you once held dear wants to break free, pretends to be there but in their heart of hearts they want to run away, break free, and the only thing which stops them is well....ummm....the stickiness. (hell yeah, i studied marketing a lot today).

There are relationships and there are friendships and there are buddyships....and once or more than that we do grow over some. What we found was so dear, now becomes a liability, a process that should happen just because it always used to happen....This is probably when one needs to take a conscious call, whether to continue the pretence or let the things R.I.P.

Is it not better to be over things in the most civilized of manners and then be on good terms than to crib about it every now and then. Every one moves on in life, no one is ever stranded alone but then when you move on what do you do of those who you leave behind...

Just what I expect is be clear and be vocal, I can take that any day. What bugs me the most is the pretence, the 'saccharine sweetness' and the lies...also the bitching ofc !!

For all those who ever move on, please ensure that you have disposed of your past with grace, have the courage of accepting your walk, have the courage to admit it that you no longer are what you used to be...

Wants a time turner to herselves....

Well, as always I turn to writing or rather typing my thoughts down when I am the most confused in my life. Confused I am, but to some extent I think that I am taking the situation to be at a bigger level than it actually is. Probably I am making excuses not to study and I also realize that this wasting time is not gonna help me in any ways. More so, if anything it will harm me and make me rue about it later, but then its probably okay to sort out things when its still time.

So to the two most aspects of my life, professional and personal.

On the professional front, the two long years of MBA have almost come to the second last station, where the last academic exams are just around the corner and  even bigger hurdle that is the placements are yet even closer. For exams it is probably okay as they have been there for almost last 20 years of my life but then these placements, they are supposed to be the catapult I have spent 8 Lakhs of my Dad's hard earned money for. These placements, I wouldn't say I am expecting the best profile on campus but then again, I am hoping for one of the good ones. As some one once rightly said, u do just the needful, to excel u need to take that extra measure to be more than good.Lets hope that the next one month sees me in better light, I make full utilisation of my time and make the best preparation for for the placements and eventually make my parents and grand parents proud.

On personal front this year has been the worst in my life. Just lost someone who was my undying support in life, more about it later though. Friends in IIFT haven't been good either. Had the most number of fights with them. Disagreed on most parts and felt bad on a lot of them. Seems like the ending curse remains here also. Where in IET the last few days we spent being angry at each other and cudn't enjoy like we should have done, it looks like this is going to be the case in IIFT too. Already Family members have their allegiance divided on to other certain groups or clubs...sometimes it feels like we are together just for the sake of it . We don't hang out together. We don't spend time yapping with each other. We don't even have our regular dinner or lunches together. AND the biggest of all we disagree on most things. Someone would say that friends agree to disagree, but the things take an ugly turn sometimes, which is not so nice. On the room front again, things get weirder where despite everything, u feel like living with urselves every day. Somehow, that comfort of sharing things, laughing at them has gone away. Probably so many changes have taken place. Or as someone told me a few weeks ago, that I have changed for no good. I have lost my sympathetic humane side and probably gearing myselves for a more professional and ruthless life. God knows whats the case but then I am not liking it .

Hence I want the time turner to myselves and want to change a few ways in which life has changed.